I know where this author has been in her head - the same awful (and sometimes wonderful) places I was some years ago. Although I didn't get into drugs as well like Lisa, alcohol was my downfall in virtually every part of my life. Hope I'm 'over' it now - some twenty years (twenty!! - cannot believe how many years ago...) without a drink thanks to treatment and AA. Lisa describes the situations where the choice between alcohol and work, or alcohol and marriage, or alcohol and life will always be alcohol. The blackouts (when I carried on drinking and living but my memory stopped recording) - not knowing the next day, but having a nasty feeling that you did something terrible... To be confronted by those who loved me about those things... A well written account of her descent into a messy lonely existence, just using to keep away the withdrawal effects of not using. And also about her recovery 'one day at a time'.